Friday, January 23, 2015
What if i fall?
So it's been the new year for quite a while now and i must say i'm starting to come to grips about what it means to be a young woman or an adult at the very least.
I recently passed my driving (SAY WHAT?!) yes i did. And with the new year would come many friends who are preparing to go overseas for a semester of studies while i stay here and try to source for internships. I must say despite having much more confidence in myself than i did when i was say 10 - my mum used to say i had such little confidence in myself i would walk with my head hanging low and looking at the ground. I used to say it was because i needed to see where i was going but we both knew better. My point is i'm starting to accept that some things can't be changed and i'm making a bigger effort for things that i want to keep or change in my life.
I always start a year by attempting to remember my previous resolutions and re-direct them but this year I'm going to let nature take its course with just a guiding objective behind it i guess. I've done skydiving which has gone off my bucket list and it's just something about being thrown out of a plane which makes you suddenly realize you're alive. You're afraid you're happy and you're in an insane place of your mind all at once.
Don't ask me what came over me but I gained a sudden sense of clarity in those few minutes. People always told me to take chances and i took them - but often after calculating all the risks involved. THAT's not really taking chances at all. I mean for goodness sake I'm going to be 21 in a few months time and here i am still trying to figure out what those 4 letters in my name represents. So I'm going to focus my life by un-focusing on particular goals and sort of letting my mind take me where it wants to go. I'm not going to change my habits but perhaps more of my mindset.
Hope you guys start out well too and well - come on an adventure with me :)
"But I'm afraid to fall"
"But, my dear, what if you fly?"
Think about it.
Mona ♥
Friday, January 23, 2015
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