People have always asked winners what it felt like to win. While (naturally) giving them the glory of being the best, I always can't help but wonder how second-best always feels. Assuming their capabilities are similar if not equal, the only difference was the probability that one of them would have a higher chance of winning and did. And the other is forced to suck it up. 

I've always wondered what it was like to be someone's first choice. I guess in any situation where you would feel like you are the top choice, you often don't think that you can be replaced. Large corporations call this complacency and feel the need to constantly push their employees to improve in skillsets, knowledge, soft and hard skills - in anything really, that would give them an edge over others. 

So what if we flipped it over to a relationship? Imagine you were in an exclusive agreement, should you constantly have the fear of being replaced by your partner meeting someone better? With better looks, personality and whatever else in between that you can imagine? Well, many can't fathom the idea of such a thing happening but maybe it turns out to be more real than we imagine. We are taught to love ourselves for who we are, and to find someone who would do the same. But when we have settled in, eyes start to turn and partners start to realize they could do even better. So perhaps it is at this point that I am able to come to terms with my situation. 

In the same way nobody is guaranteed a job and would be most willing to jump to somewhere with better job prospects, maybe that's what has happened to everything around me as well. It is only human nature to want the best for ourselves of course. So on this fateful day, as I gain a little more closure to whatever had happened, I do hope you continue to find your happiness with who you have chosen. I may have just been one stepping stone onto the path of who you would eventually end up with, but for that brief moment, I was happy and I can say for certain I have grown. Guess it wasn't a wasted youth after all. 

Take care and for a long time coming, I can finally say this with sincerity: 

With all my love and blessings, I can let you go.