Monday, August 31, 2020
What do you seek?
Please ignore my typos in the earlier posts. I realised the more passionate I am, the worse my spelling becomes. Also, another update in the life that is well, mine.
I signed up for a matchmaking agency.
Please hold all your laughter. Even I, at 26, did not think I would have done this so early on in my life. I figured I've tried most avenues to meet people, why not find the very ones who have made matchmaking their career am I right?
The most fun part would be the calls where they ask you what you want in a partner. I almost got stumped at this. What do I want in a partner? Same thing as everyone else, really.
Someone who is kind and thoughtful, has a similar sense of humour, enjoys the outdoors?
But even as I was walking through my 'criteria' of guys I would want to meet, I could not help wondering what the other side of the convo would be like. What do guys look for in girls - and would I ever fit someone's criteria?
The idea of it seemed pretty scary to me - that I was essentially breaking myself down into points. Did I have a good-enough face or figure? Would my salary be enough to match up to him? Would my education level match up and would we be able to carry on and have good banter? Was I even smart enough to know how to act on a date?
For as much as school has taught me the right way to structure an essay or the right way to tackle a problem - i never thought i would hit this issue in my mid-twenties: I have no idea how to suss a potential partner out. I'm still in the midst of getting myself verified for this process - and I'm filled with a tinge of fear that these curated dates (amounting to about $100 each time I get a new date) could potentially be someone I end up with.
Or it could go up in flames.
Either way, I feel in control of this next relationship path if you will. I'll write about each date as they come and perhaps we'll see if I mature through this process. Sometimes, I feel I lost a part of my youth as I was too focused on getting things right and just being the best I could be. I've missed out on opportunities to have really good relationships with people in my life.
What is my point of saying all this? Maybe I'm just trying to tell myself this is a good move to take and that it's a right path to head towards. If not, get ready for a bunch of really interesting meetups and we'll see how it goes from here on out.
Take care and take back 2020 everyone! We've got 4 months left.
