Sunday, November 26, 2017
Thanksgiving
Things are starting to look up.
I'm starting to find peace in doing the little things. The night walks, the strolls along the river, eating a meal but not feeling the stare of people but just enjoying the time i spend with myself.
I don't know if this makes sense, but i don't feel lonely anymore.
A bittersweet memory crossed my mind today. The little promise I once had during Christmas.
I was just looking at my hands the other day from writing so much that it started to ache.
I still remember those blue-silver Christmas lights along the entire street and how you took my hand when we crossed the street. It was so sudden that I got a shock - it seemed instinctive for you but it was still one of the most intense moments. I expected you to drop it after we crossed but you kept holding. You promised that day that you would always hold my hand for as long as we could see Christmas lights - before we had to stop holding hands.
I got a shock and asked why we would ever stop doing this. You said I would be too busy holding the hands of our children. Even as a teenaged girl on the brink of adulthood - and one who never entertained the thought of children - I remember feeling a warm tinge spread through me and held your hand even tighter.
Seems pretty funny how that was close to 5 years ago but still comes around every Christmas period to remind me how warm I felt on that chilly evening. Guess we really did stop holding hands but not for the reason you thought. (Didn't I say you were bad at predictions? laughs) I'm glad you have someone beside you this upcoming holiday season, and I'm glad she has you too.
Thank you for making me who I am, and for giving me memories that I hold dear to my heart.
Here's to making the right choices and the ones that will keep us all happy.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone.
Mona ♥
Sunday, November 26, 2017
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